For the last several years I have battledseveral chronic health conditions. I will get into each one independentlyin separate blog posts, but over time each one of them has dragged me down,physically, financially, and most of all emotionally. I have hidden thetrue toll of what these illnesses have done to me. You can see on theoutside the weight I have gained from the medicines I have had to take, butwhat you can't see is how I feel on the inside. You can't see thephysical pain. You can't see the emotional pain. You can't see howmuch it hurts to be me every. Single. Day. To get up every day and smileas though nothing hurts. To be there for everyone else. You can't seewhat goes on in my head every day. If you could you would wonder how I getup every day. You would wonder how I have managed to work a full-timejob, let alone work a 2nd part-time job.
Two people know a lot of what I am goingthrough. My husband, Monty and my mom Edna. But even they don'tunderstand the full extent of it. I still do my best to be strong forthem. Why? Because I AM STRONG!
This blog is not a pity blog. This blogis about empowerment. This blog is about teaching others about theillnesses I have, what they have done to my body, my soul, and what I am goingto be doing to get MY LIFE back.
At my last doctors appointment my doctor toldme my only chance was bariatric surgery. That is a real slap in theface. But, I had looked into in the past and I "wasn't fat"enough at that point, and that was like 50-60 pounds ago. No one wants tohelp me find out why I keep gaining weight, they just assume itswill-power. So, if it is, this surgery will be a cure-all -HAHA. Yes...I like to eat certain foods - don't we all? But,my mind is made up. I am having bariatric surgery. Life alteringsurgery to lose weight.
I am putting my journey out for the world tosee. For the haters to hate. For the fat shamers and body shamersto join in and tell me how fat and disgusting I am. Go ahead - I've heardit all. We will talk about you bullies later.
May 6, my husband and I went to the Bariatric SurgerySeminar at DHMC (Dartmouth Hitchcock Medical Center). It is held on the firstFriday of every month, and they have speakers from their program. They have graduates of the program, nurse practitioners,dieticians, surgeons, etc. It was reallyinformative.
There were a lot of people there. I almost wrote there was a TON of peoplethere, but that would have been in poor taste (hehe taste – I know I amhorrible). They told us when we scheduledto take the seminar to get there as close to the start time as possible becausethere would be NO SEATING outside of the conference room. So if standing would be a problem planahead. Standing is not a problem for myhusband and me and we were there 15 minutes early. There were many people there already, andyes, complaining that there was no place to sit. I mention this to Monty; did they not readthe packet information???
They open the doors and say to us to please fill the roomfrom the back to the front; from the far side first that way when people comein they don’t have to trip over others trying to find a seat. Do people do this? No. They sit in the first seats. UGH.Monty and I are in the second to last row on the end of an aisle.
Next they tell us that they encourage us to ask questions,but
please keep it generic and not specific due to HIPAA rules. Do people
pay any attention to that? Again, NO. Very specific questions abouttheir health that we did not need to know.
This makes me wonder. If they can’t follow these 3 very basic requests are they going to becompliant with the program. Do they havea problem with authority? Do they notlisten? Do they not care?
Yes I am a rule follower. I know who would have guessed! Stop it….I know you are laughing at me. I am the loud mouth who doesn’t care what others think, blah blah blah.But actually I follow the rules. No I am not a strict follow the lambs to theslaughter type of rule follower, but I can follow simple rules and do getannoyed when others do not.
Like line cutters. Did you watch Big Bang Theory a couple of weeks ago? I wouldn’t create a big scene like Sheldon, but I have spoken up topeople that have cut lines. It is rudeto those of us that have stood in line.
I know this post has gotten way off course, but I am likethat; just ask my kids, wait was that something sparkly? Did you just seethat? HAHA It is bad!
Okay back on track. The seminar started with stories from 3 graduates of the program. One had a bypass, one had a sleeve, andhonestly I don’t remember the 3rd but I am guessing she had asleeve. They have lost between 70-120ishpounds each. I loved their speeches butwish they had posted pictures of what they looked like before surgery, so youhad a comparison.
Then there was an overview of the program and briefly of thesteps you need to do in the program. Asurgeon from the program spoke about the 2 different types of surgeries thatthey offer, the bypass and the sleeve, and reasons why you might get one overthe other. I will go over the differenttypes of surgery in a later post.
There was a dietician that was cute as a button. She was a tiny, little, wisp of a thing. Shemight have come to Monty’s waist. She wentover many different things, like what your food plate should look like. Have you noticed how much this has changed inour lifetime? First we had the basicfood groups, then the food pyramid, then the food pyramid has changed countlesstimes, now we have this plate diagram.
Then they sent us on our way. They were measuring necks on the way out thedoor. If your neck measured over 17”then you need to have a sleep study for sleep apnea. My husband and I already have had this studydone and have CPAP machines. (another topic!)
I walked to the car and called my PCP and asked them to makethe actual referral and I will be on my way to getting started on myjourney! YAY!